My Healing Story

When struggles become blessings

I stared at the orange medication bottle in my hand for what seemed like a lightyear. I took a deep breath and knew what I had to do. I stood up, walked to the bathroom and dumped every tiny blue pill into the toilet; I released my life force. 

Rewind 3 years back, to 13 years old. I was sat down and informed that my mother had passed away after years of drug and alcohol addiction. My dad was in prison. I laid on my bedroom floor wondering how I was going to survive in this world if neither of my parents, the people who gave me life, could. 

At the age of 13, I felt a lack of security. I felt like no one could understand the pain or confusion I was experiencing. I thought that some people were meant to be happy, and others, not so much. 

This spiraled into a nightmare as I’m sure you can imagine. I couldn’t focus in class, I was either sleeping from emotional exhaustion or daydreaming. I dealt with what I would call now an eating disorder, coming from a place of never feeling adequate. I felt a lot of anger toward life and didn’t know how to get out of the hole I felt stuck in. 

At the age of 15, I started taking two types of ADHD medication. It killed my appetite & cloaked my personality. On days that I would run out of my prescriptions, I would feel lifeless. I continued having to up my dosage due to a growing tolerance. I was worried that I would have to take it for my whole life, or else I wouldn’t be able to function in the real world. 

Back to me, dumping my pills in the toilet. This was a pivotal moment for me. I was 16, and glimpses of light were starting to shine through. I had recently been reading about meditation and began opening my mind to new forms of spirituality. My curiosity fueled passionate research regarding any and every societal construct. This included animal agriculture, the government, big pharma, monetized religion, and how they are all so wonderfully (sarcastic) intertwined. Pandora’s box was opened. 

That moment in the bathroom was really nothing but a conscious decision. It was me, accepting the fact that my parents were human, recognizing the generational pattern of pain and confusion, and making a conscious decision to end that vicious cycle. I recognized that the medication, the self- destructive thinking, the pent up emotion; all of it, needed to be released, once and for all. 

I quit my medications cold turkey. About a month later, I adopted a plant- based lifestyle, from the decision to extend my compassion toward myself, other beings, and the planet. I meditated everyday. I delved into everything holistic health related, including but not limited to energetic healing, chinese medicine, Ayurveda, plant medicine, the medicinal properties of herbs and plant foods, combating emotional eating, and more. My confusion was replaced with passion. 

Beside my natural inquisitiveness fueling my holistic healing rampage, everything I implemented really worked. Medication, an eating disorder, unhealthy coping mechanisms; none of this worked. Meditation, plant based eating, learning mind control; these things made a drastic impact on my life. I slowly started to feel more confident, energetic, and most importantly, whole in myself.  

Ever since, growth has been beautiful but certainly not easy or comfortable. Healing hasn’t been about pretending to be perfect or having everything figured out; on the contrary. Healing is recognizing those inner wounds and saying “Hi, I see you! You are loved” and making the decision every day to mend them.

 When childhood- stemmed feelings of inadequacy arrive (which sometimes they still do), instead of being hard on myself, I give myself a mental hug and remind myself that I am enough. This is what healing has looked like for me.

 Life has become infinitely more authentic and rich because of these moments where I allow myself to feel and then loving myself for it. 

Choosing growth, delving headfirst into my passion, and moving upward instead of drowning in my thoughts: this was what saved me from the path of self destruction. 

Now, to present day, a part of aligning with my truth is responding to my purpose. This, I am confident to say, is to provide hope for those of you who are also ready to end limiting programs and habits, big or small, and live out the life you genuinely deserve. 

Witnessing and guiding the transformation in others is what I am most passionate about. For me not to be working in the field of health and healing, would be steering off my divine path. If there is anything I can thank my challenges for, it would be for revealing these truths to me. 

There are many other details of my life that have shaped me into the person I am today; these parts I have just shared are just a few stops on my journey. I intend to be vulnerable and share more as long as it displays a message of hope. 

Sharing the darkest times of my life isn’t difficult because I consider those times some of my most impactful blessings. They provided me with the clarity and strength required for me to bloom into my truest self. I now view my life challenges as opportunities to rise above and get to know myself and others on a deeper level. This extends into my practice; I will always remind my clients, friends, and loved ones that whatever you are experiencing in your life, whether it’s bliss or tribulation, it is a vital part of your journey, and the moment you truly embrace it is the moment you are liberated. 

If you have also recognized the generational pain and confusion passed down into your present life, whether it’s eating problems, drug/alcohol addiction, limiting beliefs, financial struggles, or any form of self- destruction, congratulations. Now that you know that it is there, you have the power to end it. Your choice in doing so is the decision to heal generations before you and clear the path for future generations. Choosing to love and heal yourself is actually one of the most selfless decisions you will ever make. 

Moving forward, I couldn’t be more thrilled to announce the upcoming release of a 1:1 healing program called The Radiant Womban. This transformational program is designed exclusively for women. I have been investing my energy into developing this program for nearly a year, though it contains multiple years of research and experience. This is where all my passion and energy has been invested recently, along with continuing my own path of self- growth. If you are a woman, or a man who knows a woman who is undergoing symptoms of a hormonal imbalance (acne, mood swings, cramping), and are interested in natural birth control, or is seeking empowerment to take on life like the badass female that they are, here’s more information about The Radiant Womban. <- Click. Please remember, your story and transformation is just as important to me as my own. We are all on this journey together. 

Thank you for taking the time to read my story. Now that you know a little about me, I’d love to know more about the experiences that make up you. Email me at gabdozier@gmail.com or feel free comment below. 

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An Intro to CBD

When I started smoking pot at a young age and was lectured at, my excuse was always that it is healthy, it helps me sleep, and it makes me happier. At the time, I said that but I didn’t know the extent to that truth, and probably mostly smoked it out of rebellion. Now, years later, I have gone through my fair share of bud, and continue to use it, however more aware and educated of the benefits it has.  

One aspect of marijuana that I learned is that it’s made up of more than 400 chemical entities.The most commonly known and strongest link to your “high” is called tetrahydrocannabinol, or THC. There are products that you can buy that essentially have separated compounds of marijuana for different medical purposes. That’s right, you can reap the benefits of marijuana without getting stoned. If this had been more commonly known when I was a teenager, maybe I wouldn’t have had an excuse to get high!

A recently trendy and essential compound of the marijuana plant is called Cannabidiol, otherwise known as CBD. It can be taken in the form of oils, capsules, hemp pre-rolls and bud, edibles, and so much more. The best part: it’s legal. An 18 year old could potentially order high CBD/low THC weed online and face no consequences- as long as their parents are chill with it of course.

I take CBD oil on a daily basis, about 50mg a day and sometimes more if I’m dealing with soreness or cramps. There’s a lot I could write about it, and will probably cover it in more depth in future articles, but here’s a quick understanding of what CBD is and how it could potentially change your quality of life:

  1. It can heal your body and mind:

A few well known benefits are:

  • curing cancer tumors
  • preventing the growth of free radicals(which are the cause of cancer)
  • helping people with substance abuse
  • reducing seizures for the epileptic
  • reducing diabetes
  • relieving anxiety and depression
  • alleviating cramps(I can attest to that one)
  • so so much more.

If you are suffering from one or more of these ailments, please don’t hesitate to try CBD as it may drastically improve your health and overall well being.

  1. It does NOT get you high:

                    As I covered earlier, there are different compounds in marijuana, some that get you high, and some that don’t. CBD does not. Many kids with epilepsy and elderly that aren’t looking for the psychedelic effects will take CBD and don’t notice any head change. This is GREAT for you big aspirers who get couch lock every time you hit the joint. The closest to a high you’ll feel from CBD is the intense relief from any pain you might have.

  1. It might save you money:

A good bottle of CBD oil, which can greatly benefit someone diagnosed with ADHD, costs roughly $120 and can last the whole month or longer . You can spend more or less depending upon the quality. There are expenses associated with health problems that aren’t talked about as much, such as taking days off work, physical or mental therapy sessions, and an overall decrease in productivity. And while your insurance might cover your Oxy’s or xanax, chances are that you’ll be paying more out of pocket down the road to treat your side effects. We can skip that whole mess and cure the root of the problem with cannabidiols.

  1. It is generally made from legal hemp plants:

Although CBD’s can be isolated from plants that contain high THC, it is mostly made from hemp plants that are less than .3 percent THC and have high cannabidiol levels. Hemp is legal to have/grow and is used for making sustainable clothing, healthfoods, biodegradable plastics, and lots more.

 

 

After seeing my dog’s seizures stop immediately from a few droppers of CBD oil, and after taking it for months and seeing a radical shift in my health, I am confident to say that it is a revolutionary medicine. It has been and will continue to act as a potent remedy for people suffering from all types of health issues.

The disclaimer is that everyone has different bodies and genetic makeup meaning what works for me might not work for you. CBD’s have helped hundreds of thousands, if not millions of people, but there are people who don’t sit well with it for whatever reason. Just like how some people can eat dairy and others can’t. Side effects and allergies are extremely uncommon but also mild, so don’t worry about going into anaphylactic shock from a little CBD. Try it out if you’re looking for a potent remedy or for preventive health, you’ll most likely love it and reap the benefits you need most.

I buy my CBD oil from http://www.westcoastcbdsupply.com and have had an awesome experience with their customer service and quality of products. Although it wasn’t easy at first to drop the money on an oz bottle of oil, I found that it was an investment in the most important thing- my well being. Knowing that I have a remedy for hungover mornings and muscle pain from standing so long at work, I am at ease and have more time in my day to enjoy the moment.

Feel free to do your own research, look into testimonials, and make your own decision as to whether CBD could help you or someone you know. It might just be the remedy you’ve been seeking.