My Healing Story

When struggles become blessings

I stared at the orange medication bottle in my hand for what seemed like a lightyear. I took a deep breath and knew what I had to do. I stood up, walked to the bathroom and dumped every tiny blue pill into the toilet; I released my life force. 

Rewind 3 years back, to 13 years old. I was sat down and informed that my mother had passed away after years of drug and alcohol addiction. My dad was in prison. I laid on my bedroom floor wondering how I was going to survive in this world if neither of my parents, the people who gave me life, could. 

At the age of 13, I felt a lack of security. I felt like no one could understand the pain or confusion I was experiencing. I thought that some people were meant to be happy, and others, not so much. 

This spiraled into a nightmare as I’m sure you can imagine. I couldn’t focus in class, I was either sleeping from emotional exhaustion or daydreaming. I dealt with what I would call now an eating disorder, coming from a place of never feeling adequate. I felt a lot of anger toward life and didn’t know how to get out of the hole I felt stuck in. 

At the age of 15, I started taking two types of ADHD medication. It killed my appetite & cloaked my personality. On days that I would run out of my prescriptions, I would feel lifeless. I continued having to up my dosage due to a growing tolerance. I was worried that I would have to take it for my whole life, or else I wouldn’t be able to function in the real world. 

Back to me, dumping my pills in the toilet. This was a pivotal moment for me. I was 16, and glimpses of light were starting to shine through. I had recently been reading about meditation and began opening my mind to new forms of spirituality. My curiosity fueled passionate research regarding any and every societal construct. This included animal agriculture, the government, big pharma, monetized religion, and how they are all so wonderfully (sarcastic) intertwined. Pandora’s box was opened. 

That moment in the bathroom was really nothing but a conscious decision. It was me, accepting the fact that my parents were human, recognizing the generational pattern of pain and confusion, and making a conscious decision to end that vicious cycle. I recognized that the medication, the self- destructive thinking, the pent up emotion; all of it, needed to be released, once and for all. 

I quit my medications cold turkey. About a month later, I adopted a plant- based lifestyle, from the decision to extend my compassion toward myself, other beings, and the planet. I meditated everyday. I delved into everything holistic health related, including but not limited to energetic healing, chinese medicine, Ayurveda, plant medicine, the medicinal properties of herbs and plant foods, combating emotional eating, and more. My confusion was replaced with passion. 

Beside my natural inquisitiveness fueling my holistic healing rampage, everything I implemented really worked. Medication, an eating disorder, unhealthy coping mechanisms; none of this worked. Meditation, plant based eating, learning mind control; these things made a drastic impact on my life. I slowly started to feel more confident, energetic, and most importantly, whole in myself.  

Ever since, growth has been beautiful but certainly not easy or comfortable. Healing hasn’t been about pretending to be perfect or having everything figured out; on the contrary. Healing is recognizing those inner wounds and saying “Hi, I see you! You are loved” and making the decision every day to mend them.

 When childhood- stemmed feelings of inadequacy arrive (which sometimes they still do), instead of being hard on myself, I give myself a mental hug and remind myself that I am enough. This is what healing has looked like for me.

 Life has become infinitely more authentic and rich because of these moments where I allow myself to feel and then loving myself for it. 

Choosing growth, delving headfirst into my passion, and moving upward instead of drowning in my thoughts: this was what saved me from the path of self destruction. 

Now, to present day, a part of aligning with my truth is responding to my purpose. This, I am confident to say, is to provide hope for those of you who are also ready to end limiting programs and habits, big or small, and live out the life you genuinely deserve. 

Witnessing and guiding the transformation in others is what I am most passionate about. For me not to be working in the field of health and healing, would be steering off my divine path. If there is anything I can thank my challenges for, it would be for revealing these truths to me. 

There are many other details of my life that have shaped me into the person I am today; these parts I have just shared are just a few stops on my journey. I intend to be vulnerable and share more as long as it displays a message of hope. 

Sharing the darkest times of my life isn’t difficult because I consider those times some of my most impactful blessings. They provided me with the clarity and strength required for me to bloom into my truest self. I now view my life challenges as opportunities to rise above and get to know myself and others on a deeper level. This extends into my practice; I will always remind my clients, friends, and loved ones that whatever you are experiencing in your life, whether it’s bliss or tribulation, it is a vital part of your journey, and the moment you truly embrace it is the moment you are liberated. 

If you have also recognized the generational pain and confusion passed down into your present life, whether it’s eating problems, drug/alcohol addiction, limiting beliefs, financial struggles, or any form of self- destruction, congratulations. Now that you know that it is there, you have the power to end it. Your choice in doing so is the decision to heal generations before you and clear the path for future generations. Choosing to love and heal yourself is actually one of the most selfless decisions you will ever make. 

Moving forward, I couldn’t be more thrilled to announce the upcoming release of a 1:1 healing program called The Radiant Womban. This transformational program is designed exclusively for women. I have been investing my energy into developing this program for nearly a year, though it contains multiple years of research and experience. This is where all my passion and energy has been invested recently, along with continuing my own path of self- growth. If you are a woman, or a man who knows a woman who is undergoing symptoms of a hormonal imbalance (acne, mood swings, cramping), and are interested in natural birth control, or is seeking empowerment to take on life like the badass female that they are, here’s more information about The Radiant Womban. <- Click. Please remember, your story and transformation is just as important to me as my own. We are all on this journey together. 

Thank you for taking the time to read my story. Now that you know a little about me, I’d love to know more about the experiences that make up you. Email me at gabdozier@gmail.com or feel free comment below. 

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Becoming a happier person: 3 easy steps

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Reclaiming your happiness

You’re snuggled up under your sheets peacefully snoozing away. Your obnoxious alarm starts making its way into your dreams and before you know it, you’re pressing the snooze button for the third time. One of two things is going on. Either you’re hungover(whether it be from alcohol or an intoxicating work week) or, you’re subconsciously avoiding your reality.

We’ve all been there; hungover, yes, but also, so unenthused about life that we’d rather float around the dream realm instead of hopping out of bed and taking on the day. This feeling is merely a portrayal of life’s ebb & flow. One day we’re on top of the world, and the next day we’re facing inner war.

The good news is that we have complete authority over our minds, although it doesn’t always feel like we do. The trick is to learn how to grab the reins and start controlling your thoughts instead of letting them control you. How, you may ask?

I am going to provide three life changing exercises that have been scientifically proven to increase one’s psychological positivity, also known as happiness. I learned about these tools in my schooling, but I also have personally been using them for years, especially during times when I’ve been stuck in a rut.

I encourage you to frequently implement these exercises in your life whether you’re fighting depression or are simply seeking inner growth.

 

  1. Develop Gratitude

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Back to you and your beds love affair: Imagine you waking up, and instead of dreading having to get out of bed, you feel deeply thankful for being alive. Instead of being bored of your daily routine, you pay more attention to the blessings you rarely notice. Is it really necessary to be unhappy?

The likely truth is that there are more miracles in your life than there is affliction. After all, the chances of you being born is 1 in 400 trillion. Although you might be facing challenges in your life, your ability to transform your perspective gives you the option to feel happy at any point.

Practicing gratitude will not only make you instantly feel better, but will help retrain your brain so that it naturally produces more dopamine(the happy chemical).

 

Exercise: Buy yourself a journal or grab some paper. Write down 3-5 things that you’re grateful for. It can be anything. I like to focus on the basics, such as: a roof over my head, food to eat, the energy within me that keeps me alive. That sort of thing. Allow yourself to feel the gratitude as deeply as possible. If you’re prepared to jump into a life of happiness and abundance, start doing this exercise every morning or night(or both!).

 

  1. Learn to breathe

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The moment that you were born, you knew to take a breath. You knew that it was your life force without anyone having to tell you. It’s unfortunate that many people grow up and forget the power of the breath.

In today’s society, there are an abundance of distractions that cause people to forget to take full deep breaths throughout the day. The lack of oxygen to the brain leads to stored tension in the muscles. That tension leads to anxiety, which is ultimately a form of depression.

It’s time to let go of the tension. Start placing more focus on your breath, and begin using it as a tool when it seems as though your mind is working against you.

 

Exercise: Take a deep breath. Hold it in for 3 seconds. Let it go until your lungs are empty. Release the tension in your body as you exhale. Repeat. This practice takes less than a minute and can immediately transform your state of mind. When you are driving, take deep breaths. When you wake up, take a few deep breaths. The more you implement this, the more results you’ll see.

 

  1. Sink into the moment

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It is easy to assume that once “things get better”, you’ll feel happy. So you might work your butt off to become more successful, or sit around and wait for you life to change, but in truth, that isn’t going to make you happy in the long run.

Happiness starts with right now, in this very moment.

Although the past and the future seem so relevant, they are ultimately illusions. The past is a figment of your memory, and the future is a concept that is yet to exist. The most authentic reality you live in is now.

Remembering this will help you heal from painful memories as well as anxious feelings for what tomorrow brings. It’ll help you become more aware of your current blessings and encourage you to see situations for what they truly are.

 

Exercise: Stop what you’re doing(or thinking) and direct your attention toward your fingers. Do you feel the tingly sensation, the energy running through them? As you feel the sensation, look around the room and notice every detail. Try not to think about what you’re going to do after you’re done reading this article, and rather allow yourself to focus on the moment. The more you do this throughout the day, the more conscious decisions you’ll make. This will be your way of taking control of your mind and naturally becoming a happier person.

 

So there you have it. The solution to your blues. All that is left is for you to decide that you want to be a happier person, and start claiming authority over your headspace.

Although there are a plethora of exercises that could work, these three are the quickest and most powerful ones I know toward reclaiming your enthusiasm for life.

I intend to provide more tips and tricks regarding this topic in the future, but for now, I encourage you to consistently use these steps for improving your life and becoming the very best version of yourself.


Happiness is a Choice

 

 

 

 

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I was in my sacred space, my loft bedroom looking over the coastal forest. I felt like I had just recovered from a storm, because for the first time in a long time, I was content with my life. The reason why: I realized happiness was within me, after being under a spell of thinking it is dependent upon my external situations.

 I had spent years of my childhood waiting for my life to get better, because as soon as I could reach the stage of understanding the context of life’s events, I wasn’t always given the prettiest pictures. Most people aren’t. That is where perspective becomes our most useful tool.

We’re all on different walks of life, experiencing many variables and having different reactions to the same events. That is what makes us unique. Our complex pathways made up of even the tiniest of decisions. Yet there is a commonality we all share, which is the ability to just be.

When you finally get a moment of peace and understanding is when you have gained a new perspective. Because you see, while looking over the forest and feeling content, I could have made up some story in my head as to why life still wasn’t good enough. But I didn’t. I chose sit in the moment and allow my self-made happiness permeate my mind. We all have this miraculous power within us; to create an oasis from our thoughts and problems.

I challenge you to sit with yourself. Feel the energy running throughout your body, feel the natural tingling sensation at the tip of your fingers. Allow yourself to feel happy. You don’t have to have any specific reason to feel content, other than the fact that you’re breathing right now. There’s a divine energy within you that is helping your heart pump and your brain neurons fire. That is enough to feel grateful for.

Whatever you are going through, I hope you continue to love yourself and remember that you are not your life’s events. You are separate from the drama in your life, but connected to everyone and everything around you. And when you’re overwhelmed with your surroundings, just close your eyes and let your breath be your escape.

Affirmations: a beginners guide

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Affirmations

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Hi there, it’s me again! It has been one crazy week, but right now I’m sitting in the sun by the river, sipping on hemp milk matcha, watching the leaves fall, and am feeling inspired to touch basis with you about a topic that changed my life.

A few days ago, I turned 21 years old! I went out with my boyfriend, some family, and a few friends. Twenty first birthdays are well known to be hectic for most, and I think that would have to be an understatement regarding my experience. Let’s just say I’m glad to be home and have a fresh start before I begin knocking out some goals. As I ease back into daily responsibilities, I am having to utilize some of the more effective methods to gain my focus back.

I feel inclined to share with you one of the most powerful tools I’ve come across throughout my spiritual journey. It is the power of language, otherwise known as affirmations.

I discovered affirmations before I really knew of their potential. Whenever I went to my grandparent’s house as a kid, I would find sticky notes all over the fridge, on bathroom mirrors, and so on. Written in my grandma’s perfect handwriting would entail a powerful statement as simple as “I am loved”.

At the time, I didn’t understand the concept to its fullest capacity, yet I still followed my grandma’s footsteps and found myself writing similar affirmations in my journal. All I knew was that it made me feel good.

No matter your religion or spirituality, implementing affirmations into your life can be an extremely powerful practice that will develop a noticeable change in your physical reality.

In the bible, Proverbs 23:7 says “As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he”.  

Albert Einstein quoted “your imagination is your preview of life’s coming attractions”.

The Buddha proclaimed “All that we are is the result of we have thought”.

When you use affirmations, you are affirming yourself of the power you have in this world, and are providing yourself with the proper energy to manifest miracles in your life.

If you have ever gone through a rough patch where everything seemed to have been working against you, you might remember some of the thought processes that came about. You might have told yourself that you don’t deserve happiness, or that the world is a dark place. You might have affirmed whatever pain you were going through by reminding yourself and others how bad it was. At the time, you may or may not have noticed how these thoughts were renewing the negative energy and creating more problems.

For instance, I have found that when I attach myself to a negative situation(because I’m human too), I might start thinking about it in depth while I mindlessly clean the house, and before you know it, I stub my toe really hard and it becomes the cherry on top of my problems. This is an example of how negative thoughts can quickly manifest into a physical problem.

The beautiful thing is that it works the same way with positive thinking and speaking. When you choose to promote empowering and loving words, you are developing an energy within your heart and mind that is reflected in your outer world.

I’d have to say that the largest miracles in my life are a result of thinking and speaking affirmations. When I decided that I wanted to live in the tropics for awhile, I continuously told myself that I am capable of anything I set my heart to, and before I knew it, I was laying under palm trees in the white sand and thanking the Universe.

Even today, as I am working to expand my brand so that I can positively influence the world and have a career that I’m passionate about, I have to remind myself everyday that I have infinite creative energy and compassion to share with the world. My own words have become my highest source of motivation.

An important aspect of affirmations is that they are always said in present tense. Instead of saying “I will become healthy and happy”, you will say “I am healthy and happy”. Saying it in present tense allows you to really feel out what it’s like to live out your words. The feeling you have while saying it might be the most effective part of executing your goal.

Here are a few affirmations I have been using recently. I encourage you to say them out loud, or in your head, and really feel what it’s like for them to be true:

I have a healthy body, tranquil mind, and a vibrant soul.

I create happiness by appreciating the little things in life.

I am enough.

My job brings me financial abundance.

My positive attitude, confidence and hard work naturally draws in new opportunities.

I radiate success.

Life is full of love and I find it wherever I go.

I utilize my creative energy to positively impact others lives.

I don’t entertain negativity in any shape or form, I simply let it go.

My relationship is divine and my partner and I are perfectly matched.

I know that massive actions cures anything.

I am a fearless explorer and feel as though I’m always on vacation. <<< one of my favorites!

You can also create affirmations that focus on what you want to manifest in your life. Just remember to always say them in present tense, and to only use positive and empowering words.

There are many ways to implement affirmations in your life, and I believe the more creative ways you use them, the more power they hold in your life. A few ideas are:

  • Writing them on sticky notes and placing them around the house(like my grandma does)
  • Putting them in your car
  • Writing an affirmation on paper five times a day
  • Saying them to yourself in the mirror 10 times
  • Closing your eyes and meditating on the feeling your affirmation brings
  • Bringing them into the context of conversations with others
  • Empowering others with your favorite affirmations~ It feels just as good if not better
  • Create a drawing including your affirmation and color it in
  • Whatever works best for you 🙂

I genuinely believe that implementing affirmations in your practice will create an amazing change in your life, and I want to motivate you to start using them on a daily basis. Think deep and hard about the reality you want to live in, and turn that thought into a bold statement. If you feel willing to share, I’d love to know what your affirmations are for this week. I’ll be sure to get back to you and even send you a reminder next week of your chosen statement so that you don’t lose touch with your truth.

This week, my chosen statement is “I live in abundance”. I will incorporate this statement into my actions, my work, and my communication with others. It will create a shift within my life, and I will make sure to follow up with you on the impact it makes.

Thank you for taking the time out of your day to improve your life by using the power of your words to reach your highest potential. Our world is ultimately a reflection of our minds and as long as we continue to have thoughts of love, growth, and abundance, the world will gradually change for the better.

I hope you have a beautiful week and really look forward to hearing back from you! If you know anyone that might benefit from the power of affirmations, feel free to forward this email or send them to my website, where this letter will temporarily be available to the public. Let’s work together to change the world.

Love,

Gabrielle


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A few tools that will help to implement affirmations into your spiritual journey:

50 daily affirmation cards

Creative Visualization: Use the Power of Your Imagination to Create What You Want in Your Life

Sticky notes for your affirmations

The Affirmations Coloring Book

Eco- friendly notebook for affirmations

Colorful pens to write down affirmations

Why I Stopped Using ADHD Medication

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Coping with a fast paced mind

I’ll start from the beginning. When I was in early High school, I felt like there was something wrong with me. I had an awful time sitting through class and would often drift into la la land while the teacher lectured us about postulates and linear equations. I took advanced classes and would go home with a stack full of homework. The challenge was, my attention span lasted about 10 minutes. Which meant I would sometimes stay up all night long trying to complete a few hours worth of homework.

Beyond that, I dealt with emotional turmoil because instead of properly processing the challenges I went through, I let my fast paced mind take hold of me. So, under the illusion that a doctor would fix my problems, we scheduled an appointment.

I went in, told my doctor how I felt, and he sent me home with a few evaluations that I was told to give to my teachers and older family members. I brought them back after everyone filled them out, and he had them assessed. He told me I had a high chance of having ADHD. There is no way to physically test if someone has it or not, so it is presented in terms of likelihood.

He prescribed me two medications. Vyvanse in the morning, which is a stomach activated non-stimulant, and then Adderall for when the Vyvanse would wear off.

I can definitely say that it helped me focus. In fact, it made me hyper-focused. I would meticulously clean my room, find enjoyment out of math homework for once, and most of the time forget to eat. I was becoming really skinny because I religiously exercised and never had an appetite.

At first, I was happy with the “improvements” it was bringing to my life. But after some time, I started to see the flaws in which it brought. For starters, I had to continue upping my doses because I quickly grew a tolerance for both medications. I was nervous that I’d have to keep increasing my dosage for the rest of my life. Second of all, if there was a day where I ran out of medication and couldn’t get a refill, I felt absolutely incompetent. I would stay in bed all day and feel brain dead. Lastly, I realized that I no longer enjoyed writing, music, or art as much, and those have always been some of my deepest passions.

I could tell people were worried about my weight and could sense a change in my personality. It was a very serious thing at a young age to be completely shifting the chemical foundation of my mind.

It wasn’t until I started learning more about the structure of our society that I started understanding why I thought I needed medication to be normal. Humans are expected to act and be a certain way, which is why the school systems are seeking high test scores instead of encouraging kids to focus on their passions. I realized I was taking a few pills to conform to the expectations of others.

The fact is that I have always had a strong right side of the brain, and have felt more in tune with my creativity than my logical thinking. As soon as I learned to appreciate this instead of view it as a hindrance, I felt motivated to come off of my medication and find natural ways to cope with my fast paced mind. As easy as it made my life and as addicted I was, I still chose to quit overnight because I knew in my heart that it was taking away from my true potential.

I was on pharmaceuticals for about a year, and it has been almost four years since I have used them. When I look back at my writing during that time, I see an author restricted from her highest capabilities and stuck in structure rather than truth. It has been liberating to find relief in substances that bring genuine positivity to my life, instead of feeling incomplete without taking a few pills.

If you take medication to cope with your inner challenges, that is okay. But if you feel that it is bringing you more problems than solutions, it might be time to start exploring various ways to cope. If you are experiences side effects that are negatively impacting your health, I highly encourage you to talk to your doctor as there are always alternative solutions. If you’ve felt an underlying need to stop taking your medication, again, have that discussion with your doctor.

I want to remind you that are whole, complete, and absolutely beautiful whether you take medication or not. The purpose behind this article is to inspire anyone who feels incompetent in this society to assess your qualities and find the positives in what seems to be your downfalls.  It is also my intention to be as raw as possible so that we can share this imperfect human experience together. And as always, I encourage you to envision the life that aligns to your truth, and live it out.

To see my methods at which coping with my distractions, check out my article 5 ways  to Naturally Cope with ADHD.

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Disclaimer: that I am by no means encouraging anyone to quit taking prescriptions without doctor supervision. This is a touchy subject and I have no intention to offend anyone who uses medication as a tool in their life, as this is simply based off my own experiences. I encourage everyone to follow the path that feels right to you.